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i last updated 84 weeks ago... [21 Jun 2007|12:26pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

so being back here is wierd...

but i was using the bullitons on myspace to blog...which is no good...


soo...
IM BACK

this whole things weird...i read my most recent entry like the one right before this...and its just wierd...
i talk about andrew and how i miss him...and miss hanging out with all those people...

a lot has happened...
we all lost contact...except for shelb who i talk to infrequently...

as for andrew...last friday he killed himself..
and i went to his funeral yesterday..

a lot of people showed up which was nice..
they made cd's with his favorite music...which only makes sense..


hmm...whatelse is different...i dont talk to betty at all anymore...
shes overly a pothead..
to the point where shes tryin to get a hold of some and smoke on her breaks from rehab

who does that? its not very smart..

anyways...
ill probably post more frequently here...
cause i still need and outlet...
and i dont have anyone anymore...

not even chris...
mr. booth.


and as for people who actually cared bout my bullitons on myspace...well they can either find this...or just be left in the darkk....

like any one was reading them anyways >.<


<333

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the low fuel lights been on for days...it doesnt mean anything. [05 Nov 2005|02:38pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]


Artificial Lifeform Limited to Infiltration


ok.
first...my aim has a killer virus so if you see me online dont IM me because it shuts down as soon as you do and then i dont have a chance to see wtf is goin on with it.

i have one phone line. 755-2495. call if you feel the need. if it's busy. dont fear. try again.

i have dial up again. and i dont have the password. so when my mom fucks up and leave the icon on the toolbar i can get on. thats about it.


im sick. and bored. i have the house to myslef today. and tonight. and im taking advantage of it. if i can. i need a ciggerette.

i hate loosing contact with people. it hurts.

even more then that i hate when i get contact with them again...and they've changed completely into comething you hate. something completely different...opposite of who they were.

cough cough.
cory.


dom.

just...people.


hmmp.
i miss andrew.

im afraid to call him.

cause it might be the same with him.

whatever.
i miss hanging out, him shelby eric me. fun.

i just miss.

i dunno.
dont harass me. im not in the mood. leave happy comments. or dont leave any.

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highlighted sentences.... [14 Jul 2005|11:37am]
[ mood | wow ]

When the sun came up
We were sleeping in.
Sunk inside our blankets
Sprawled across the bed

And we were dreaming.

There were moments when
When i know it and
The world revolves around us.
And we're keeping it
Keep it all going
This delicate balance
Vulnerable,
all i know is

sing like you think no ones listening
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would kill for this

sing like you think no ones listening
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would...you would...

sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything

we're glad for what we got
done with what we lost
out whole lives laid out
right in front of us


sing like you think no one's listening
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would, you would

sing like you think no one's listening
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would...

sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything

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fsdkkdfkljlkdsfa [11 Jul 2005|04:59pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

she is so cheap.

she acts like the depression is coming back.
im leaving.

im just ganna be gone.
im tired.
she takes my money to do stupid things for herself.
then yells at me when i ask her to spend ANYTHING on me.
and of course she wont let me use my own money.

because she uses that for her.



















i hate her.

i hateeee. fsdjkllkfdsklj
im ganna be gone i swear...i do better on my own. with all MY money.


i just earned 150 dollars doing the most boring work in the world.

how much do i see of it.

75
and i havent even seen it yet.



bull-fucking-shit

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you should see my scars... [07 Jul 2005|05:47pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

to a dumb wanna-be everythingCollapse )

he started it up again...i was so calm..i gave up...i was like whatever...but that bitch has more then even three fucking faces....it's so wrong...

im so tired of his aim to hurt her. that's all he does...like he is programed...

 

something that sick and sad and discusting should NOT exist.

 

haha...my icon reminds me of this. betty you may steal it...you deserve it more then me.

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crack song haha [26 Jun 2005|06:30pm]
[ mood | he was supposed to be here @3 ]

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear you’re feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can’t explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick. [ping]
There’ll be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up?
I do believe it’s working. good.
That’ll keep you going for the show.
Come on it’s time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

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discovery science... [15 Jun 2005|01:07am]
[ mood | wow... ]

we are made of *startdust*

we are *children of stardust*

we are *the stardust generation*

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hajha [25 May 2005|05:16pm]
[ mood | creative ]

hahaCollapse )

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id drive staight off the edge [02 May 2005|04:55pm]
[ mood | blank ]

so this is how it feels to be dead in your own flesh.

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little debby >. [29 Apr 2005|06:43am]
[ mood | pms? ]

i hate how he can turn shit like this around and make it seem to everyone like I started it.
he called me.
i said don't start shit with me and i won't with you.
he started shit.
he brought betty into it by using her the threaten me.
and.
he brought my mom into this by IMing me like that in the first place.
I WAS IDOL. MEANING. NOT THERE.

it just makes me so angry. how im the onoly one who tells him he sucks and why. and where. and how long. and such.
BUT everyone says it behind his back.
just no one but me to his face.
grrr
well not everyone. but a lot.
but no one tells him but me.
so he continues to think he is the invincable shit.


ajkfhdsf

anywaysss.
i think im going to sci fi tonight?
that or possable a movie.
either way i have a ride.

maybe ill try both.

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haha [28 Apr 2005|07:36pm]
[ mood | bored ]

If You Ruled the World: by oomarilynmonroe
Username
national religion
Type of Government
How you take over
You would name it
You would overthrowmudhler
Your second in command would bexounlovedxo
Your sex slave ishitlerpunksprty
Commander of the military:blissful_apathy
Put to death for insubordinationxpoisonxcandyx
Figure head in the puppet governmentheart_of_daje
You are overthrown byperpetual_agony
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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FUCK [28 Apr 2005|08:40am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

ok. my mom saw josh's IMs to me. cause i didn't have an away message up.
and.
she talked to betty's mom. and the school.
so.
fuck.
she might make me transfer schools. so. fuck.


if one person gives me shit today. they are dead.

i'm not strong.
but.
if you piss me off.
..

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this is so gay. shut the fuck up no one cares! [25 Apr 2005|02:54pm]
[ mood | DIP ahhhhh ]

Juggalohavok10: yo u are a faggit u cant do shit i would like to see that and wat are u trying to say u are gay agin and u don't know shit about me anymore betty will kick your little scronny ass

Auto response from AbaNdONeDBreAth: don't start shit with me and maybe i wouldn't be so mean...


but i was just telling the truth >.<

Juggalohavok10: u need to grow up to reality u want to go to heaven u have to stop doing wat u do

Juggalohavok10: its fucking anoying and if u or your freinds call my house or my familys house or bettys u will regret it. DON;T EVER call me agin u fucking faggit.

AbaNdONeDBreAth: you made a girl cry at my house

AbaNdONeDBreAth: that is crossing the line

AbaNdONeDBreAth: and i thinks it is cute that you'd let your gf fight for you

AbaNdONeDBreAth: go die

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this is what happens when you piss me off. [25 Apr 2005|02:31pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

He haddddd to start this up again.Collapse )</p>

 

what can i say? little things go boom.

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does anyone understand what this guy types? i cant even attempt to pick that apart. [25 Apr 2005|02:17pm]
[ mood | content ]

Juggalohavok10: stopp acting so helpless and saying hasing if u get in their face that is harass u should know that u stupid bitch i guss u are a no good bisexal agin

Auto response from AbaNdONeDBreAth: the eternal sunshine of a spotless mind.

AbaNdONeDBreAth: stop lying to your gf. pretending to be things your not like a juggalo, a skin head, a racist, and a red neck. stop making threats you cant live up to. stop trying to type. your to stupid. you can't spell the word stop. stop being gay. the truth is no one likes you. no one i know that knows you that i have ask about you has said anything good. they all hate you and think you're annoying, except for betty...for now. just stop faking your life.


to harsh?

anyone care to agree?

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everybody. slowly. racing. towards. death. [10 Apr 2005|01:12pm]
[ mood | suck ]

i fucking hate you.


flkdsajlkfdsak
everyone just leave me alone.
everything. just. hurts.

did i ask you? no.
fuck off.
die die.
damn.

ill be happy.
ill be a sunspot one day.
till then ill caress the moon.
singing monotone lullabies
of breaking glass and children cries

i need someone who would choose me over anyone else.
i need to die.

there is no perfect love song.
but perfect ones to make you cry.

am i rhyming?

damn damn.
screw this all.

ignore me please.

pretend im dead.
im just the fly on the wall.


someone squash me.

i bet i bleed black and orange and blue.

what a i saying.
help me out of my head.

fuck fuck fuck.
die.


i wanna be beautiful.
nothing is ever enough.


go fuck yourselves. im done.

*This is love.*

BULLSHIT.

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there's no way...cause you can't pay. [06 Apr 2005|07:09pm]
[ mood | i think i may be dieing. slow. ]

i think we all have bad days all together. and then we all take it out on each other.

that's what friends are for.

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changed? [29 Mar 2005|08:25pm]
[ mood | busy ]

tell me what you think of my journal..

NOW.

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sexed [26 Mar 2005|02:45pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

! YOU HAVE BEEN SEXED! Spread the legs and go at it! Pick any of your friends who you think don't get much lovin' (or maybe they do!) and, SEX THEM! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!) This is for any one you think is hot! RULES: 1- You can sex the person who sexed you, of course. 2- You can sex the same person as many times as you can (c'mon, ENDURANCE)! Be creative!* 3- You -MUST- spread the sex! At least 1 fuck is fine and dandy! 4- You should sex in public! Be adventurous, damnit. Paste it on their user page so they feel slutty! 5- Random sex is perfectly okay! 6- Please, don't worry about same gender sexing, it's HOT. 7- You should most definitly get started fuckin' right away! This is about showing everyone how much you care for them and HOW BAD YOU WANT THEIR ASS! Make everyone feel a little loved (and roughed up!). Please don’t take this too personally."

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OMFG EEWW [23 Mar 2005|04:25pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

ok. sry bout that promo. i hope nobody clicked on the link. cause people joined and are postin.

just.
eww.
nasty shit.
so yeah.
dont go there!
>.<
sorry. i didnt know!

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